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A very single Al, this pictures. And I honestly believed at this point in my life I would never get married. Guys just like…didn’t ask me out. Apparently as a member, being covered in tattoos was a big hang up for *their vision LOLOLOLOLOL. Or maybe a guy would like the idea of me but couldn’t get over the fact that I “had a past,” or that I didn’t have my family in the faith. Or that I was already done with college. Or that I already lived on my own with no roommates.

I yelled at Ben pretty bad last night. My blunt trait is strong to a fault, and sometimes, I have a tendency to overdrive my point too deep. Like, if he did something that upset me, I’m gunna let him know, but not just know, really know, hahah. So dumb. Not always!!! But sometimes. (can I blame it on being a virgo….lolololol jkjk). And yet regardless of how I acted, (or overreacted), Ben apologized. HE apologized, even though I was the one yelling. Which immediately made m

honestly…I was a little bit apprehensive about this year.A lot of unanswered questions and big big decisions that are out of our hands for Ben to pursue his PhD. This year is guaranteed a new and long season for us. WHYYYY is trusting God so hard sometimes?? If it is true that we have the most all-knowing, powerful, perfect Being to ever exist on our side, why is it so hard to allow His will to take over and to fully give it to Him? Why is it so hard to let Him take care of

HEAR ME OUT: I literally never thought I’d get married. Lot’s of reasons & here’s a quick summary: -I would notice the kind of girls that were getting asked out & I began to be afraid that b/c I didn’t look a certain way, wasn’t a certain size w/ a certain style, or grow up in a strong gospel-centered family, or know how to cook or make my own skirts, I was forever going to be overlooked. -I didn’t look temple worthy. That not only did they not want to date me, but it was ha

Five years ago this week Ben came home from his mission. Also 5 years ago this week was our first date anniversary! So, in spirit of this week, we are doing something we never thought we would do! As most of you know, Ben and I wrote each other for most of his mission–even though we never met in person. (You can read our full story in our book, Cheers to Eternity!) After a while of writing, we sent videos to each other. WE ARE FINALLY POSTING THE VIDEOS WE SENT TO EACH OTHER

😞AHHHHH man, I had a LONG day the other day where–one thing after another, it seemed– went wrong or got worst. I, myself, didn’t do a single thing to try and make it better, I just let it happen and even expected more things to go wrong. I watched the clock, sloowwwlllyyy counting down until the day ended. 8:30 pm, I was sitting at the kitchen table typing some thoughts. Ben grabbed my arm to try and pull me up. I fought against his attempt to make me do anything than what I

[Don’t feel like reading? Listen to the AUDIO version, HERE.] “I was sitting in a lesson at church and the teacher said that all people with tattoos are bad people.” I have received WAY too many emails like this. This is a quote from an email I got just this morning. WHY? I thought we were past this! I thought we were more intelligent than this? I thought we were more loving than this? I thought we followed Christ better than this? And no, this is not about tattoos, and no,

Don’t let people tell you marriage becomes boring. Don’t let people tell you kids ruin or take away from things. Don’t let people’s comments of “once you get married you can’t…” & “once you have kids you won’t be able to…” Because they simply.ARE.NOT.true. [Don’t feel like reading? Listen to my audio version, HERE] I absolutely love everything about having kids. Adventures have doubled since we had them, because we chose to plan it that way. And I, more than anything, LOVE

I don’t tell anyone this, but I was engaged to a boy that I didn’t end up marrying. We had a date set in the temple and everything. He broke it off. He told me that he usually dates, “really skinny brunettes,” and that he, “knew he could find someone much better.” Yepp. Brutal, right? I had never been crushed so low in my entire life.Reasonably so, right? My self-esteem completely shattered. Even that is an understatement. I’m not skinny enough, pretty enough, I am easily re

2015 | GET THIS BLOG POST AS AN MP3! Click HERE to listen to my Voice Recording of this post & Download for FREE It was a long and incredibly lonely time before I would be considered for a date. And that was really hard, just barely moving to Utah against my will (but following God’s), being in a new place, not knowing what I was supposed to do there and feeling absolutely and completely alone. (No, not just because of the lack of boys, but in general and in every way you cou