LAST YEAR’s New Years priesthood blessing I was promised a very specific blessing, NON of which And I grew sour about it. I brought it up to Ben throughout the whole year. Not only did that not happen but that specific thing was a struggle & a trial to us. And I grew bitter towards that priesthood blessing I got. And then I got my this years New Years blessing—and was not the first thing addressed in it around👆🏼that: “Those blessings will happen when you put forth the effor
There is *always another way to look at things
Every passing second is a chance to turn it all around
Allow God to be God.
We find what we look for, look for the good.
Good is always there b/c God is always there.
When it’s out of our hands, it’s in God’s.
Embrace the unexpected knowing Who is guiding you.
The unexpected is God intervening
Through it all, He becomes more real. Could you trade that?
We’re part of something so much greater than the *here.
Get up & move. Get you
I was on my way to Vegas, and as you can imagine, the plane was huge. Vegas plane rides are always different than other plane rides; they’re loud and filled with excited friends traveling in big groups who usually start to party while on the plane, or even before. I was in the back of this giant plane and it had taken two hours for the snack cart to come down by where I was sitting. There was a woman diagonal to me wearing headphones, who was getting not only impatient but ma
honestly…I was a little bit apprehensive about this year.A lot of unanswered questions and big big decisions that are out of our hands for Ben to pursue his PhD. This year is guaranteed a new and long season for us.
WHYYYY is trusting God so hard sometimes?? If it is true that we have the most all-knowing, powerful, perfect Being to ever exist on our side, why is it so hard to allow His will to take over and to fully give it to Him? Why is it so hard to let Him take care of
Two people are on an escalator when the escalator breaks down and stops moving. One says, frustrated, “I don’t believe this,” while the other one starts yelling for help, “Hello? Anyone there? If you can hear me, there are two people stuck on the escalator!” That’s right, an escalator. It’s funny because they aren’t really stuck. But it does pose valid questions we all need to ask ourselves at some point: Are we really stuck? Are we the ones getting in our own way? Are we see
I have gone through too many trials that have left me literally yelling at God wondering where He is and why things were happening the way they were and why things haven’t ended yet. Almost every time, things never going how I had in mind and always going down the unwanted and unexpected and uncharted paths with unsure destinations. I think of how Christ loved Martha, Mary, and Lazarus—one could argue that Lazarus and his two sisters were His closest friends. When near Jerusa
Joseph in the Old Testament was excited about the future he had. Visions of being a leader with parents who favored him, it definitely seemed like justified excitement for the path he was to live. Life was good. Until it wasn’t. He went from being abandoned in a hole – slavery – prison. This is most definitely not the life he wanted to live. And this is most definitely not the life he felt he was promised to live, either. Sometimes we feel like Jospeh where life goes unexpect
43 hours total driving in 2 separate cars. I just drove across the country for the 5th time as we moved from New York to Arizona. It was two weeks without our things, waiting for our moving truck, pregnant and sleeping on the floor with an air mattress and using the stairs as our table. I’m tired of moving and problem solving and starting over and sacrificing. But God asks us to do hard things. It’s part of it all. Sometimes He asks us to leave our family and move across the
It is well known the raging storm that caused the apostles to yell, “Carest thou not that we perish?!” But perhaps maybe we can more see ourselves in our personal storms & our heavy thoughts & passing doubts & our pleadings of: ‘Carest thou not that I’m struggling?!’ Carest thou not that this is SO hard?! That this was unwanted? That I don’t deserve this? Thats this has been going on for TOO long? Carest thou not…that I don’t think I can go on…?! Carest thou not…about ME? Lik
After I got baptized, my life fell.apart. And I’m not exaggerating. Now, if you’ve heard me speak or read my book, than you know this. But I also realized today that the 191K of you following me on Instagram have not heard me speak or read my book & this isn’t common knowledge to most of you guys. I’ve never known loneliness until I got baptized. I’ve never known such painful sacrifice & loss until I joined the Church. I’ve never known real pain until then. Indescribable ang
HEAR ME OUT: I literally never thought I’d get married.
Lot’s of reasons & here’s a quick summary: -I would notice the kind of girls that were getting asked out & I began to be afraid that b/c I didn’t look a certain way, wasn’t a certain size w/ a certain style, or grow up in a strong gospel-centered family, or know how to cook or make my own skirts, I was forever going to be overlooked. -I didn’t look temple worthy. That not only did they not want to date me, but it was ha
IS GOD PUNISHING ME?!! Why did it have to happen to me and not them? Did I do something wrong??? It isn’t fair, it wasn’t supposed to be this way.
Why would God bring me to this just for it not to work out?
What am I supposed to be learning? What is the hidden blessing from this? What tragic thing could I be avoiding from this falling through? Was it taken away because I wasn’t grateful enough? Is there even divine meaning behind this, or is just life just being life? How
😞AHHHHH man, I had a LONG day the other day where–one thing after another, it seemed– went wrong or got worst. I, myself, didn’t do a single thing to try and make it better, I just let it happen and even expected more things to go wrong. I watched the clock, sloowwwlllyyy counting down until the day ended. 8:30 pm, I was sitting at the kitchen table typing some thoughts. Ben grabbed my arm to try and pull me up. I fought against his attempt to make me do anything than what I
Hiiiiii! A message from me to YOU as we celebrate Christmas! When we celebrate Christ’s birth, we are celebrating everything we wouldn’t have it it weren’t for Him. Like the many, many years that passed between prophesy and awaiting the star to appear of His birth, let’s not allow passing time to bring doubt or loss of faith in what’s promised to us. <img src="https://i0.wp.com/i.ytimg.com/vi/tnIhgUhtUps/hqdefault.jpg?w=723&ssl=1" loading="lazy" decoding="async" alt="You
I tried to get a mix of a little bit of everything in here. Some of the songs I wanted to add aren’t on YouTube, so this will have to do as a good starting place. I did create a YouTube Playlist, but some of the songs I linked to are part of a very long compilation upload and you’d have to listen (or watch) the Playlist to know when songs start playing that I didn’t intend to include, (if that makes sense). I’ll star which ones those are*. Take My Hand – Shawn McDonald I wan
I think it’s common for us to all to have doubts creep in. Either from a trial, or from lack of efforts on our end, or maybe just silly fleeting ones that come when you’re vacuuming your living room. I totally have random and fleeting doubts sometimes. [Don’t feel like reading? Click HEREfor the audio version of me reading it. Free downloads available, too] But then you have these moments in your life…where you feel and experience…so deeply…that you have no words to describe
God doesn’t always tell us what is right. Annoying, right? How difficult it is sometimes to move forward with decision making because of this. Especially when you want so badly just to follow His will for you, but you aren’t exactly sure what His will is. Although we can receive from God all the time very specific answers that are very clear, there are also times when we just can’t figure it out. How can we discern between our thoughts from the spirit? We are told that all go
I’ve been MIA on social lately, and it’s because this trial given to me has been so difficult and unfortunately it's been kickin' my butt and I don’t see it ending quite yet. It’s the kind of trial that lasts longer than you think it should have. I’d like to say I’m as strong as I was when it first presented itself, but I’m not. It’s the type of trial where your strength is warn very thin and you feel like you’ve been positive about it for too long that you can’t help but let
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t let Satan into my head just the other day. This past week I was really sick that left me lying in bed for a few days. ‘Rest’ is not a word I love, in fact, I don’t like it at all, I like keeping busy, I work better that way. Yet here I was with too much time to be half conscious with an idle mind. And an idle mind is a very dangerous mind- it’s like a flashing vacancy sign for the adversary to stop by and overstay. I was laying there and I gla
Don’t feel like reading? GET THIS BLOG POST AS AN MP3! Click HERE to listen to my Voice Recording of this post & Download for FREE I never sought after having children. Growing up I was never around children or babies. I’m the youngest of 3 and my cousins we’re not too far behind me in age. Not only were babies foreign to me but for the most part there were no examples around that it was something to work towards. I never knew anyone with a large family and definitely no one