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Feb 1, 2018
1 min

Love Everyone -YOU ARE NOT A BAD PERSON! [4k vid]

I had a blog post go viral last year so we turned it into a video! Love EVERYONE - You Are Not a Bad Person!! [4k] I don’t care if you’re covered in tattoos, I don’t care what age or race or gender you are, I don’t care if you grew up and stayed in the church, if you grew up and left the church, or if you never heard of the church until now— EVERYONE is welcome and invited to partake of forgiveness. EVERY SINGLE PERSON is welcome and invited to partake of salvation. Of change

Jan 29, 2018
1 min

I DID IT! I Finally Started a Vlog!

there's several reason why I didn't start one yet, but regardless of how I feel about vlogging, it IS a reoccurring thought. And I have learned way too many times to listen to my reoccurring thoughts, because that's usually how the spirit speaks to me and exciting things can happen! VLOG: video blog. A behind the scenes look of my week by week personal life. I will not be uploading natively to FaceBook, so be sure to subscribe to my YouTube to catch these videos and follow a

Dec 2, 2017
1 min

Drinking Dirt + Learning LDS Water Resources

Day 2 of the #LightTheWorld campaign was WATER. Hear more about what the LDS Church is doing worldwide to help others get clean water, AND the resources we have from the Church to be prepared to have clean water when disasters and emergencies hit. More info on LDS Charities: https://www.facebook.com/LDSCharities/ More info on Home Storage locations, Food Storage, online ordering: http://www.foodstorage.lds.org Watch where I tour a Church Home Storage Unit & learn how to start

Jul 7, 2017
5 min

Is the Church of Jesus Christ for You?

When I was living in Arizona, missionaries invited me to join in on a lesson they were having with an investigator through video chat. This man’s journey started a bit ago with the desire to know what to do with his life, what to do with God and what church he should attend. I felt the spirit so strongly and my testimony strengthen this whole lesson as I saw the elders teach with the spirit with such perfect responses to this man’s questions. Yet regardless of our best effort

Dec 27, 2016
3 min

When Satan Tells You You're Ugly

I cried today because I didn’t feel pretty. I tried to take a picture with Ben to post on Instagram and it ended with me crying in our room with a mental list of things I wish were different about me. [If you don't feel like reading, scroll to the bottom & hit play on my Youtube version of this] I overall don’t feel this way about myself, but it does come in waves randomly. It’s the all too familiar dance we all do with the adversary that we’re so used to doing we don’t even

Nov 17, 2016
3 min

Something I Really Want You to Know!

First off, YOU GUYS, YOU CAN DO NEW & SCARY THINGS! YOU CAN REACH AMAZING GOALS. YOU REALLY CAN ACCOMPLISH THE INCREDIBLE! WEAKNESSES REALLY WILL BECOME STRENGTHS. GOD REALLY WILL HELP YOU! That's one of my favorite things about the gospel— is doing things you never thought you could do! And progressing into someone better than you thought you ever could be. Today is my 1-year anniversary of my book and it's the perfect example of stretching yourself to accomplish the crazy a

Nov 2, 2016
7 min

The Truth About Mormon Temples & What to Expect When Going

GET THIS BLOG POST AS AN MP3! Click HERE to listen to my Voice Recording of this post & Download for FREE November 2, 2012, I went to the the Provo Temple and got endowed. It wasn't because I was going on a mission, and it wasn't because I was getting married, (not saying those aren't awesome and just as important reasons, just as long as you're going for you and for the right reasons). I went because I wanted to go on my own, I went because I wanted to be closer to God and s

Sep 19, 2016
4 min

A Trick For Trials I learned When My Engagement Failed

I don’t tell anyone this, but I was engaged to a boy that I didn’t end up marrying. We had a date set in the temple and everything. He broke it off. He told me that he usually dates, “really skinny brunettes,” and that he, “knew he could find someone much better.” Yepp. Brutal, right? I had never been crushed so low in my entire life.Reasonably so, right? My self-esteem completely shattered. Even that is an understatement. I’m not skinny enough, pretty enough, I am easily re

Sep 11, 2016
3 min

Sacrifices We Make For God

I think it’s funny there are so many people that didn’t realize I’m from New York, haha. I grew up in Rochester and stayed there up until I prayed about going on a mission shortly after baptism when I was 21—but got the answer to move to Utah instead. I would have lessons with the missionaries in the Sacred Grove, that’s where I said my very first prayer and where I eventually got my testimony. I haven’t been back in years. Long enough to where no one in my family has met eit

May 25, 2016
5 min

What God Told Me About My Unborn Son

Don't feel like reading? Click HERE to listen to my voice recording of this post & even Download the MP3 for free. 2016: We’re expecting our second child any day now! I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t counting down the days looking forward to this pregnancy being over. I can’t count all the different parts of my body that ache so badly, I’ve lost count how many nights it’s been that I have barely slept at all and had to force myself to function at work the next day—exhausted, p

Apr 7, 2016
2 min

YOU’LL BE ALL RIGHT! YOUR LIFE TURNS OUT AWESOME!

Don't feel like reading? Click HERE to listen to my voice recording of this post & even Download the MP3 for free. Sometimes I’ll read old journal entries about my trials and confusion, and I look back at all these nights I spent collapsed on the floor, screaming at God until I’d lose my voice, “I CAN’T DO THIS! This is too hard, I’M NOT THIS STRONG!”— those times when I asked where He was or why nothing was coming together yet— those moments when I was brought down to desper

Mar 13, 2016
4 min

God Doesn't Always Tell Us What Is Right

God doesn’t always tell us what is right. Annoying, right? How difficult it is sometimes to move forward with decision making because of this. Especially when you want so badly just to follow His will for you, but you aren’t exactly sure what His will is. Although we can receive from God all the time very specific answers that are very clear, there are also times when we just can’t figure it out. How can we discern between our thoughts from the spirit? We are told that all go

Jan 7, 2016
4 min

6 Ways to Make More Time for Scriptures

[If you don't feel like reading, scroll to the bottom & watch my vid😎] If you’ve read my book you’ll know how hard things became and all the people I lost after I joined the church. There were several times that my co workers and my boss would lock me in their office and make me watch all of these terrible and untrue videos about the gospel. They would tell me I am a terrible person and what I am apart of is wrong. How hard that was just being baptized and felt like I was be

Dec 19, 2015
4 min

Finding Strength During Trials

I’ve been MIA on social lately, and it’s because this trial given to me has been so difficult and unfortunately it's been kickin' my butt and I don’t see it ending quite yet. It’s the kind of trial that lasts longer than you think it should have. I’d like to say I’m as strong as I was when it first presented itself, but I’m not. It’s the type of trial where your strength is warn very thin and you feel like you’ve been positive about it for too long that you can’t help but let

Apr 20, 2015
4 min

I'm Not Judging, But...

Fart noise towards anyone who thinks its ok to start a debate on my pages about my life. Just be nice and be respectful to everyone. I’ll be the first to tell you I am far from perfect; in fact, I feel I am really open about my faults and my challenges to everyone. There is so much more that I could be doing and I’m not. And the things that I am doing I could be doing much better at, I do, I know that. Every day I’m reminded of that. But what it is that you need to know is th

Feb 6, 2015
5 min

I'll Never Get Married

2015 | GET THIS BLOG POST AS AN MP3! Click HERE to listen to my Voice Recording of this post & Download for FREE It was a long and incredibly lonely time before I would be considered for a date. And that was really hard, just barely moving to Utah against my will (but following God’s), being in a new place, not knowing what I was supposed to do there and feeling absolutely and completely alone. (No, not just because of the lack of boys, but in general and in every way you cou

Jan 9, 2015
3 min

Organizing The Spirit; 6 LDS Journal Ideas

I often think, how much more will Heavenly Father tell you when He knows you will write it down, remember it, treasure it, listen to it, and deem it as important. I know that the second we pick up a pen ready to write down anything—whether it be thoughts, impressions, blessings— we will receive even more from God. And I have found a lot of answers and counsel I am in need of is something He has already given to me and I wrote it in my journal already, sometimes years ago, tha

Aug 31, 2014
4 min

The Secret to Have Your Best Life

“I have two wolves barking inside of me. The first wolf is filled with anger, hatred, bitterness, and mostly revenge. The second wolf inside of me is filled with love, kindness, compassion, and mostly forgiveness.‘Which wolf do you think will win?’ the young boy inquired. The grandfather responded, ‘Whichever one I feed.’” (—Wayne Dyer) I looked in the mirror the other day and do you know what I saw? A double chin. A double chin that never used to be there, and my arms that l

Jun 5, 2014
4 min

Confessions of a Mormon Convert: I Have a Confession...

GET THIS BLOG POST AS AN MP3! Click HERE to listen to my Voice Recording of this post & Download for FREE Towards the end of 2013, John Bytheway and I flew together to Temecula, CA and both spoke at a Mid Single's Conference. He told me a story that I will never forget, and by 'never forget' I mean, I mostly forgot the story, but not the message, haha (My apologies to John for butchering your story). He told me of when he was younger and he was having a particularly hard time

Oct 11, 2013
6 min

You Are Enough

I am no longer a Fox, but fully and completely a Carraway! Al Carraway- here's to happiness with a companion! Still will be blogging. Still making videos. Recording audio this week for our newest video that we've been trying to get done for a while now. It's coming, I promise! I'm really excited for many reasons. One being, the topic. Any guess what it is? Two- being, did any of you noticed that I said "our" and "we"? I definitely married above myself. I strive to have as m